Allah is at the Door

I sit behind a knee-high table in the salon each morning awaiting breakfast. My host mother appears from around the corner carrying a plastic tray on top of which sits an empty bowl, a pot of hot, soupy, oatmeal-like liquid called harira, and a small plate of dates.

“Kayn lbrd lyum,” she says, setting the tray down in front of me. “It is cold today.”

“Kayn lbrd bzaf,” I reply. “It is very cold.” I work on chewing the date fruit from around its seed and watch her open the front door and peer out into the street disapprovingly.

“Kayna shtah,” she says, before shuffling back into the kitchen, “there is rain.”

The harira warms me as I cup the bowl with both hands and sip from it. At this point I usually stare at the opposite wall and zone out deeply as my mind catches up with my body. This particular morning, however, an odd noise distracts me from my dumbed-out bliss.

“Gaaaah,” it cackles hoarsely.

Looking up in the direction of the disturbance, I notice my host grandmother in the corner, peering out at me from within a little nest she has made-- a blanket cave.

“Kayn lbrd,” she says, her voice warbly and unsteady.

“Mm! Yes! Kayn! Kayn lbrd!” I reply, exaggerating the motions of my mouth shaping the words and nodding emphatically. She is almost completely deaf. Seeing that I seem to understand, she nods and we frown together in mutual displeasure. I break eye contact and go back to eating. A moment passes.

“Kayna shtah,” she says-- this time with a little more punch to her delivery. I look up. Her eyes are both meek and half-wild, and she has raised both of her trembling hands to mid-chest level as though she might cast a spell on me or attempt my destruction with deadly energy rays from her fingertips.

“Mm,” I reply, nodding and smile-frowning. My host brother sleepily clops down the concrete stairs.

“Kayn lbrd,” he shivers….

On several occasions I have asked my host mother to show me how to make certain foods, as I’d like to be able to attempt some Moroccan dishes when moved to my own house. It usually goes like this:

My host mom calls me into the kitchen in the evening. Things are already in full swing; the pressure cooker hissing, the flames from the butane gas burners whooshing.

“Here’s what you do,” she says in Arabic, proceeding to demonstrate some variation of ingredient adding, kneading, or mixing. “Now you try.”

Within the first two seconds it is determined that I am doing it wrong. Way wrong. I could not, in fact, be doing it wronger if I tried. She takes over and finishes the job with the grace and ease you’d expect from so many years of practice.

“I need to write this down,” I say.

At dinner she gives all credit to me. “This is Samir’s bread! Samir made this!” If by “made the bread” she means “added bacteria to by touching it awkwardly”, that would be accurate. Still, so kind of her to say. She’s a good host mom.


Back to Grandma. A very sweet and well-intentioned woman, though this is often overlooked due to the bit of loony-ness she’s adopted with old age. She does her best to help out. For example, when my host mom insists my host brother wear a hat because of the cold, and he refuses, grandma tries to add a bit of wisdom:

“Yes! You should wear the hat because it is cold and when it is cold it is good to wear hats because the hat will keep you warm when it is cold! The hat! Wear it! Kayn lbrd!” Poor Grandma, no one listens.

One afternoon Grandma, my host mom and I were sitting in the second floor salon. I was reading, my host mom sewing, and grandma looking at the TV. The doorbell rang (it sounds like birds chirping). My host mom sprang up and hurried downstairs to the door. Grandma, not having heard the doorbell of course, asked me where her daughter was going. With my index finger I pointed up to the doorbell high on the opposite wall. Grandma looked upwards briefly then nodded gently in understanding.

“Ah,” she said, “….Allah.”

Poor Grandma. In the evenings after dinner when we all watch TV, my host mom and brother fight over what to watch. He wants soccer, she wants anything but. Whatever the program, he demands no talking during it. I get a free pass, however, should I say something. Sadly, Grandma does not. When my host brother hits his breaking point he jumps over to her, climbing on her, and screams into her blanket cave for her to shut up, literally an inch from her ear. It’s pretty harsh, and were I his real older brother perhaps a bit of “adjustment” would take place in such cases. But alas, poor Grandma.

I have a house to rent on the other side of town. I was hoping to be moved out by now but due to lots of rain and random obstacles, I’m at the host fam’s for a bit longer. I suppose I should cherish it while it lasts. They have gone “above and beyond” during my stay; such truly kind people-- endlessly patient and helpful. Though it’s time to leave the nest, it’s good to know I’ll have this family. Here, on the other side of the world, with people I had never met in a place I had never been to, I’ve felt as “at home” as one possibly could without actually being there. I am eternally grateful for their hospitality. I guarantee you no one will be serving me trays of warm breakfast at my new place.

Up next: My new place.